Oh Albany

Albany is getting better .. I guess .. but school isnt. This program is not at all what I thought it was going to be and I feel like they brought us all here under false statements. Who would want to be in a program that is running a new class method for the first time and that you are being a guinea pig for? I don't like that idea at all and it just frustrates me. I wish I had gone to A&M. I know that I am being tested and this will only make me stronger .. but this is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I just really need a break from this place .. and I want to go to Texas for a while, but not until December. Approximately 15 weeks away!! Just pray that I haven't lost my mind by then because this place is surely making me crazy. I like school and I chose to come here .. but I am completely confident that I will be returning to Texas in 2 years. I think I might even go speak to my advisor next week about seeing what I need to do to graduate in 1 1/2 years. I think that it will be good to say that I lived here for a couple of years and I "experienced" New York .. but I think I will be even happier to be coming back to Texas!! My mind is just going crazy here!! (I am aware that I have stated that many times already .. but I feel like I cry about something at least once a day!!) Gaaah!!

I just keep thinking about Jeremiah 29:11 " ... I will give you hope and a good future." I am hanging in there!!