Saturday, February 27, 2010

What I read today

Today while I was getting my hair done I read this verse .. 1 Peter 2:19 for God is pleased with you when you do what you know is right and patiently endure unfair treatment. God was surely speaking to me because as soon as I read that verse my heart started racing and someone came to my mind. I know what is right to do and I am going to do it ..

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I'm actually better today

I am actually much better today then I was yesterday. I have figured out some solutions to some of my problems. I have given myself until Sunday to finish my project. I decided to just ship my car home for my parents to deal with. I will put some of my stuff in the car and ship the rest little by little. All of my other stuff desk/mattress I will sale and put the money towards new stuff when I get back to Texas. About having a car to use - I just won't have one until I get back to Texas so I will just manage with asking for rides and things like that.

So, maybe it was a good thing that I was able to get all of that off my chest yesterday.

Happy Hump Day!! :)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Thought Process

So lately my mind has been going 90 miles an hour and it is quite overwhelming. So I figure I should write it down, thanks Tanna for the courage, so that I can look back at all of the situations and see how they were taken care of. *My car is still broken and this is my number one constant stressor. You would think getting a new car would be easy, but its a hard process especially when you live a trillion miles away from your family/parents. Getting around sucks without a car and depending on others sucks even more. My eyes are watering just writing this down {sigh}. To just be back in Texas again. People dying gives me bad anxiety. Our old children's church pastor just passed away another reason my mind keeps going and going. I know we all are on earth for a purpose, but death in general scares me/gives me anxiety. I have been reading my Bible and it isn't as bad, but still it causes me pain. This project for this class is overwhelming and time consuming. I don't even like management so 50 - 75 page projects cause me stress. And 3 of them in 8 weeks causes me more stress. I just want to graduate and move back to Texas. Eight weeks until my last school thing is due, so close but yet so far. I worked out for real on Monday and my whole body is sore. It feels as if I were hit by a car. I guess thats a good thing though. I've been having slight headaches, but I think it's because I'm stressed/anxious. I just want my brain to slow down to at least 50, 20 would be better. I just want things to work out and be normal. I want my car back or a car that works and can get me back home. I want someone to sublease my apartment so I don't have to pay for an empty room all summer. I want to find a job close to home. I want things to work out. And I know all things in God work for the good of those who love Him. I really want faith. Not just any faith, but the Hebrews 11 faith.* Time to get back to this project ..

Monday, February 15, 2010

Simply Love Swap

I wish I could say that I have a picture of all the goodies I got, but I was sooo excited that I forgot to take pictures and ate them all up!! My Simply Love Swap partner Gina did a fantastic job of making a girl smile!!

In my pink envelope was a rather large assortment of my favorite things:

There was some of this
and this

and this

and 2 of these

And some lovely earrings from Target. I couldn't have asked for a greater box of goodies!!

Thank you so much Gina for all of the fun things and the pink envelope they came in!!

Cause there's a million things to do

If you want to sing out
Sing out.
And if you want to be free
Be free.
'Cause there's a million things to be.
You know that there are.
And if you want to live high
Live high.
And if you want to live low
Live low.
'Cause there's a million ways to go.
You know that there are.

You can do what you want.
The opportunity's on.
And if you find a new way

You can do it today.
You can make it all true.
And you can make it undo
You see.
It's easy.
You only need to know.

If you want to say yes
Say yes.
And if you want to say no
Say no.
Cause there's a million ways to go.
You know that there are.
And if you want to be me
Be me.
And if you want to be you
Be you.
Cause there's a million things to do.
You know that there are.

I recently watched a movie, Harold and Maude, for class. And what an interesting movie it was. I recommend watching it and stepping out of your normal every day life and examining your own life as an outsider looking in. Are you enjoying life? Are you doing what you want to do? Are you letting others determine what you should and shouldn't be? In a weird sense watching this movie kind of liberated me. It liberated me from people that were hindering my life and things that were hindering my life. I don't know that I would have been able to easily recognize this without having watched this movie to get my attention. I don't want to give away the movie so I can't really say much, but the people in our lives are there for a reason. Treasure the moments with those in your life now because it is only a season and no one knows how long that season will last!

I want to: sing out, be free, live happily, be me. There are a million things to do, so I don't have to choose one I can do them all!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Numbers 62 - 64

62. Get my car detailed
63. Replace the back window handle on my car from when someone busted the windows
64. Buy a new clicker for my car

By no choice of my own numbers 62 - 64 have to be crossed off since my car is no longer with us, even though I had bought the back handle almost a week before my cars death. Sad day. My car will truly be missed. She has been with me since undergrad and she was my very first car. BUT hopefully I will be able to find an even better car to take me through the next couple of years of my life :)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Updates on life

My poor car is no more. Last week Saturday when it was 2 degrees outside my belt broke and since then my car has had more problems then ever. In NY it will cost almost more than it cost to buy the car to fix it. Sad day. So I am just trying to make the best of the situation.

I love my prayer box!! It has helped me to "Let go and let God." Things have been tough since I have been back, but I am praying for the best.

When I completed #27 on my list one of the big guys from Mr. Subb found out about it and mailed me a gift card. He was thankful that I passed it on. So for anyone else who comes upon a stranger who needs a meal you should help them!! Pass it on!!

Here I am just playing with my camera. The more I play with my camera the more cool features I find!! :)

The sun is shining, but the cold is here. Last weekend it was 2 degrees outside!! Just 2 and that was when I woke up at like 11 am! Haha. So needless to say that when it became about 30 outside I thought it was warm!

I've been babysitting and it has been so much fun M, N and I enjoy our twice a week play dates!!

And to end my blog for the day .. here are my favorite sayings I heard this week.

When God laid out the plans for out lives, He lined up the right people, the right breaks, and the right opportunities.

When you're down to nothing God is up to something.